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Ryan,

Ryan, where do I start... your my big bro and nothing will ever change that. When I got a phone call saying your brother is missing in Cass Lake my heart absolutely dropped (I even asked myself...what is my brother doing on Cass Lake? he’s usually at work on Sunday’s) So, I ran out of the house, jumped in the car and onto my friends boat... I thought for sure you were just messing around and we would find you in minutes. I told everyone not to tell mommy b/c I knew that she would be in absolute pieces (since we all know you are her favorite child) Unfortunately that wasn’t the case.... when we pulled up to the dock mommy was already there, on the floor crying & screaming on top of her lungs, daddy the same. We were all devastated; we cried and just kept holding each other praying we would find you.

I sat at the end of the dock every day just thinking about our memories and cried, prayed & hoping for you to come home in one piece. For three days we were praying, crying, screaming, hoping & wishing for a miracle to happen. We lit candles along the shore so you would see the light. We bought your favorite food (Gus and Kabob) and threw it in the lake hoping you would sense the smell and find your way home, we even lit 5 candles on a piece of wood and laid bread on it (as the priest asked us to do), we let it float in the water hoping to lead you in the right direction, we tried all we could. Everyone said just keep praying b/c miracles do happen, so we did, we prayed all day long with the rest of the world. For 3 days we fasted on just water and had not even 5 minutes of sleep.

Ryan, I cannot put in plain words to you what happen to me when the sergeant came into the house that day giving us the news that they have recovered your body in 55 feet of water. My body was uncontrollable, I fell to the ground crying, kicking and screaming so hard I thought my lungs were going to pop out, I started to hyperventilate asking my self repeatedly am I dreaming? Am in a dream? I just wanted someone to pinch me, so I could wake up from this terrible nightmare.

I can’t express to you in any way possible the loss and grief this family has went through. I would never in a million years think that such a loving happy family like ours would have to deal with such a tragedy. I can’t say one thing wrong about you even if I tried. You were such a great person; you were happy, loving, outgoing & funny. You had a heart of gold and a mind of a 40-year-old businessman. You dropped all your friends and fun and devoted all your time to work, you were daddy’s right hand man and mommy’s son she couldn’t believe god could have created any better.

I sit here right now and ask my self how could god take such an angel from this earth and leave all the bad ones here to stay? How can he take such a person like you that made my family so happy? It’s really not fair, that all the good guys go and the bad stay. Now you leave are hearts empty and filled with sadness. I wake up every morning thinking…how did I get through yesterday? And how will I get though today and the next day? Nothing kills me more than seeing mommy and daddy so sad and depressed b/c one day Melinda, Leslie and I will get married and have a family of our own, but mommy and daddy will always have a missing piece to them and poor Brandon you were his best friend and partner in crime… huh… I guess he has to step up to the plate and take on all your responsibilities and I know he will do a fine job at it.  Please just come to him once in a while and give him some courage and extra strength.

You would never let mommy or daddy be upset, you always made us so happy and I promise to do the same. When you walked in the room I would look at mommy and she would have the biggest smile on her face, now I look at her and it hurts her to smile. Daddy is so strong, now I know where you got all your strength. He has such a positive attitude (I don’t know how he does it) he comforts us all with his loving and caring words. You have raised us each so well and protected us from any harm possible; you wouldn’t let even a fly touch us. You have made me into the woman I ma Today and I want to thank you for that. I’ll never forget the time when you and I missed the school bus and mommy said she wouldn’t take us to school b/c it’s the 3^rd time we missed it. She made us walk to school b/c she wanted to teach a lesson…so you put me on your back and walked all the way there, you are my soldier and protector. I guess this life though and it could be a dark, dark world huh…. It’s something we are going to have to learn to deal with.

Ryan I promise I will never ever let you down and I will make you sooo proud just like you have made our family. You’re my idol and I always looked up to you, there is no one in the world that could replace a guy like you. I must say you were one of a kind! And the kind like you don’t come around often. If the saying “we are living in hell and heaven is a paradise is true, then I guess you deserve to live in paradise. I love you with all my heart. I guess only time will heal are family. I love you my dearest habibi Rayunnny and you will always be with us, may your body rest in peace and happiness. You will never be forgotten and that’s a promise.

Love always,

Candice

(Stupid head Chan J)

To Ryan,

     It is too sad and too tragic that you lost your life at such a young age and without any reason. Although you are in better hands now, and in a much better place, I will continue to pray for you, so that you may find peace and happiness in Heaven with God. You are resting comfortably now, and you will always be missed by those who loved you, and even those whose hearts you've touched. I probably never even said a word to you, yet you have not left my mind for even a second since the day of your disappearance. Your will always be in my heart and on my mind. Rest in Peace, dear Ryan.

     And for the Binno family....my sincere apologies and prayers go to you. Your lives will be forever changed, but if you only remember that now you have the most wonderful angel watching over you, you will be able to pick up the pieces and continue life with Ryan in your hearts. He will always love you, just as you will always love him. My prayers will continue daily for all of you. May God be with you in this time of need. Never lose faith....He and Ryan will always be with you, to watch and to guide you in all you do. Again, my sincere apologies and you will remain in my heart.

I remember when you'd pick up my younger brother (Jonathan), every now and then, and every time I'd see you, I'd say, "There is NO WAY you're only 16!"  You'd be a little shy and say, "I swear, I am," with a big smile on your face!  I had no idea that was RYAN BINNO until Jonathan refreshed my memory a few days after that horrible Sunday.  Although we did not know eachother personally, this tragedy has affected me as much as it would have, had it been someone I did know on that level. 

Ryan, I am glad that I have been able to provide your family with a memory of you that will last forever.  I enjoyed every moment of creating your CD label and putting together your Tribute video, although that took me 8 longggg hours!  After Saturday night, when Brandon was here for hours creating multiple memorable CD's, with me and a few of my friends along with my cousin Dawn, I said to myself, I gotta do more then just this CD label for his family. Your brother Brandon is amazing.  He is so mature, smart and sweet.  Not to mention, such a handsome young man!  I must say, he takes after you because he sure as hell does NOT look 18!!!  As they would say in arabic, Ma-Shal-Ahhh!!! LoL!  Ryan, you were the topic of the night.  He had so much to say about you.  He loves you and I know he's going to miss you.  Because of the words he spoke about you and your family, I decided to spend all of Monday glued to my chair at home and finally 8 hours later, the video was done!  I made sure it was just perfect for them and I think it was because they absolutely loved it! 

K, well before I go, I have to say this; I know that Brandon is going to continue where you left off so make sure you're standing right there behind him cuz he might need your help once in a while!  As for your sisters, watch over them too because they love you and they still look up to you!  I can only imagine the pain your Mom and Dad have in their hearts and nothing can make them change the way they feel but how can anyone blame them?  The characteristics you had made you the special person you will always be remembered as because there weren't many out there like you Ryan.  Although you're not here physically, we know that your spirit lives forever and you will always protect your loving family. 

Now that you're in Heaven with God and the other angels you have ONE major responsibility on your hands.  That is to watch over your Dad and Mom, your sisters; Melinda, Candice, Leslie and your one and only loving brother, Brandon.  Make sure they're always safe.  Come into their dreams every once in a while and assure them that you are okay, especially your Mom.

We know you're in a much better place now where there's peace and happiness.  Rest In Peace

~Jennifer Kiminaia~

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Ryan,

I am sorry for the loss of your Loved one. My sincerest condolences ..

Ryan,

          It was just yesterday when Candice and I were in Middle School and i used to come over your house to hang out with Candice.  You were an older brother that loved to protect his sisters.  You loved to protect your sisters so much that you protected their friends as well (not to mention make fun of me as well..LOL) 

          I heard the news on July 8th in the evening that someone drowned in Cass Lake and was missing.  I called my younger brother to see if he was okay because i knew that he was on the lake.  He was fine.  I was sitting watching a movie and then i heard that Candice's brother was the victim missing in the lake... I got so scared, thinking that it was Brandon.  I then found out that people were saying that "Ryan Binno" was missing and i said "there is no way that it is Ryan because Ryan never even takes a day off."  I said that you always work and I never see you because you work so much.  I couldnt believe what i was hearing that i called so many people just so someone can tell me that it wasnt you that was missing in the lake.  The next day i went to the lakehouse where your family was hoping that they would find you.  We all had hope deep down inside that someone found you and was taking care of you.  We just kept praying and praying and praying. Unfortunatly, the worst happened when divers told your family that they found your body.  My heart was crushed...

          Candice would always tell me how much you worked and how much you were dedicated to your family.  She told me so many great things about you.  She was so proud of you because you set yourself goals and always wanted to acheive those goals.  She loves you so much.  She used to always tell me... "Tass...Help me find Ryan a good girl... He wants to get married" and i was shocked because there are not alot of 22 year old men that are looking to get married. 

          The day you left this Earth, you put a scar in everyones heart.  You were the big brother to your siblings and still are.  They are going to miss you terribly. I know that you are still around... (not physically) to watch over your family.  You always have and you always will.  You are now your families guardian angel.  Candice (and your sisters) are who they are today not only because of your parents but because of you.  Your brother Brandon, has his head up high because you taught him to be a man.  Im in pain so much just seeing your family in pain.  Candice is like my sister so I feel like i lost you as a brother. 

           I just ask myself one question all the time... and thats "why did this have to happen to such good people????" and i will never know that answer because only God only knows the answer. There is so much evil & Jelousy on this earth that God needed another angel in Heaven.   

        Ryan, I promise that i will always be here for Candice physically, but i know that you will be there for her and your family always....  You never left them because your soul still lives in your home with them. 

         You have to help make your family stronger.  Always protect them and always watch over them.  If you need to tell them something,  tell them in their dreams.   You are in a better and safer place now...God Bless your Soul and Rest in Peace... I love you...